The end of HELL on earth week

If the icing on the cake had not been to work late the last two nights and work everyday this week wasn't bad enough....Joyce is leaving in a week. I just never have enough time. NOW I KNOW WHY I AM READING FOR ONE MORE DAY. Because I never think that I have enough time and apparently I don't do the things I should be because I am not suppose to have any regrets.
I can honestly say that Joyce is my very best friend... I just can' t imagine her leaving me it is almost like a divorce although our husbands would not see it that way. (I know that was a run-on-sentence) but I have to get everything out of my system. Joyce just excepts me and never really tries to change me and she definitely would listen to me no matter how bad her day is and I don't really feel like I have any other friends...Isn't' that funny. But she always does and says things that I need and don't think that she even thinks about them when doing the or saying something to me that should be said. I guess that my daughter and I both will be crying lots next weekend. I should have known...Don's mother has also passed away and I know that her place is with her husband at this time. Really she should be with him no matter what...It is not good to be separated...I really don't know what I expected.
The weather is crap! I wish the sun would shine more and I think that I would live longer and happier. What they say about people being affected by the sunshine is definitely true for me.
My brother, Kary sure was wonderful and acted as Maggie's grandfather Thursday. That made her day and they seem to have had fun. Maggie need that. Kary is really awesome if you don't really know him he is just someone that doesn't have a bad bone or mean bone in his body.
Work sucks!! Just because I am there too much but that is my own fault. I just need to learn how to say "NO" I have a very hard time with that word. I guess I make it okay because I have Maggie there with me but I know that can'tbe fun for a kid and I worry that in her subconsious mind that my work comes before her but I think it doesn't because I allow her to be with me. Something better be giving because neither of us are getting younger and she will be gone before I know it.

Uncle Kary has always had to show the family who has the moves...right DAD? Madison Wright is being taken down now.

Cousin Dani is laughing but might get her turn...

Kurt is just observing because it is the safest place to challenge.

Tyler Martin is showing the cousins how to tie their shoes so they can go outside and play.

Uncle Kary has the touch...kids are drawn to him; look at Keaton a newcomer and still is comfortable with or cousin Kary to him.

What the hell would I begin at today...hummmmmmmmmmm I don't know if it is the books I am reading right now or I am letting everything get to me. I cannot believe that people cannot think for themselves or need to be so hurtful in the things they do towards others. I have also decided that being the oldest is not the best in a family because in my family everyone thinks I am my mother or parents when they are gone. But my parents and myself have enabled many of my family members. I didn't think that I was alone in being the only person in my family to always think they can be a caregiver...but a couple of my other siblings stay in a relationship thinking that they will help it and I think that is what I have always done when choosing a partner to marry. But not all things are we able to fix alone and not all things are we able to undo. I have been thinking too much about what would happen if something happened to me right now and I haven't come up with an answer...
My daughter, Maggie has got to be prementrual because you can look at her and she cries. I don't think that kids at school making fun of her weight is helping. Then Don Davidson is moving and she really thinks that her world is ending...they are such good buddies. He has told her to learn to like flying and the distance won't be a problem. I wish that I could talk with Danny about her weight but his answer is doing what he is doing which is liquids and I don't think that is the answer for her at her age.
So what kind of relationships are dangerous? And when do we abanden ship so to speak? I feel that my family members might have problems with this....I have always said that some people think that my parents never had troubles in their marriage but I am sure they did they may not have airred them like we do. When are really helping our children to grow up and have good self-esteem and relationships? I don't know what the answers are but I know that when I hear my parents say the next life will be better...I hope they are right.
I was at Camelot today. When I look at those people and their lives confined to bed or wheelchairs then I think to myself how lucky I am. If I only could take away pain from my siblings lives and replace it with joy the same goes for friends that are suffering I just seem to see it more with my own family.

Steve Plothow and Kathryn Wright visiting at Best Western...Steve brought his family for the changing of the colors.
Maggie Zehring and Keaton (Steve's grandson) enjoying the pool at Beset Western.
Here we have Peru's funniest woman...Cathy Clark. Bought her first bike at 50 and is enjoying the fall in Indiana.
Dani Plothow doesn't look happy about time with Indiana relatives...hahaha
Look at the kintner grandsons...which fish is what?

Don't even get me started. I would just like to start off saying that some people have no common sense. I don't know why some people have to think that everyone is their friend or would they want everyone to be their friend. Most people can do without friends that have such evil motives. I do not understand how some people can survive in life. I really don't understand how some people can not think past their next statement.
Well I am back from just saying good-bye to my cousin's and we had afew good laughs. I had told them that I have planned to write a novel before I die...silouettes under hairdryers and "Did I tell that?" by Hairy Peters. I figure it is catchy enough that all sorts of people would buy it. No one can believe what my customers tell me. But I think they think I am being paid for therapy.
Why I have no LIFE is myown fault?! I can't ever say no and I have tried. Then someone always tells me something that I feel bad for them and will do whatever it takes to help them sometimes at the risks of my own family. I have tried to slow things down in my life so that I enjoy things more and take time for important things...that is not working either.
I am reading the boo "For One More Day" Mitch Albom. HE talks about if you had one more day with a loved who had past what would you talk about? If you had one more day and could change one thing in your life could you and then would you be big enough to take the consequences. Very interesting. He made me think when I read "The Five People You Meet In Heaven."
I just don't like being busy all the time but I don't want Maggie not to do something she enjoys. I don't want my family to miss out on good times because someone did not want to take the time to have all of us together. We all have just as much time in our day as the next guy it is just who wants to take the time and do things or make things happen. Besides, I have always said I didn't need a lot of sleep because I could sleep when I was dead.
Life is moving way too fast and time is going too fast I don't want to miss anything. I really feel that I try to live for the most part not to have any regrets. I TRY!!!

Aunt Kathryn trying to get Taylour Aniese to smile for the camera.

Zachary Wright turns 19...only a babe.

Who does this one belong to? I don't know that she has been claimed yet!hahaha

So many chiefs? Who is in charge?

Well I am very excited as you know who are reading this to have the opportunity to write this blog. Unfortunately, for some of you it may be painful as to what you might read and please DON'T ever worry about me. Whatever I write I am sure in time it seems to smooth over. Maybe because I will be talking to one of you and you will offer wise advice. I don't even know where to start...most of you know that right now I am upset with my daughter being teased at school about her weight. I have always taken pride in the fact that she seemed to have a good self-esteem. I suppose that she still does but it tears at your heart to know that others don't know her like you do and yet they still choose to judge or make comments. But life is cruel and unfortunately our children learn that early than we ever did. However, it could be pay backs for our past transgressions...(I'm using that big word for Stephen). I have started reading the book "For One More Day." It is about if you could go back and change one thing would you and then would you be a big enough to take it. That means that we have to keep in mind that one change will change many things it is a domino effect.
I wish I were more like my father in the respect that he is full of patience. It use to be that my parents would say Kelly I wish that your siblings had a quarter of your self-confidence and patience and I haven't heard my father say that for along time. Age maybe playing a cruel joke on me. I am getting grey hair but nothing like some of my other siblings.
I know that I have no patience at all for those I work with and some of those that I work ON. hahaha I just need to grow some you-know-what and then I would have a great ball of nerve but probably not clientele to use those on. People just don't think that I have anything else to do and the fact is that I love being home and I do want to spend a lot of time with my daughter. In eight years she will be gone. She says that she is going to start a nursing home in our home and put in an elevator so that she can take care of us until we die. I hope that she will not feel like that for long. She is a good kid but as Joyce says "she knows how to play me." I am learning and I just hope it isn't too late, Joyce?
Miss ALeesha is with us tonight. She is so pretty. I cannot believe that her mother doesn't spend more time with her than she does. She is smart and someday that time lost is going to come back to bite her in the butt (yolanda's).
I have to be ever so careful with the many things I say because I am very worried about my sister's children even though she doesn't seem to be. I think that Kathryn exists in her own world. She might say it is because of her job but I would think working in the prison would make you want to influence everyday of your children's lives. Zach and his girldfriend broke up last week and that has been hard for him. He was fifteen when he met Bridget andnow turning 19 this week. They have been through alot together because of the divorce of his parents and I just think that he thinks he needs Bridget because she has been his best friend. He says he doesn't want to marry her or her family and he dosen't want to have children with her.
I worry so much about my family and their children and happiness. I do get that from my mother...the great worrier. Now in her golden years she has chose to control things that are not in her power to be controlled. She just wants things to be perfect all the time and thinks that controlling things will make that happen. I don't think that she wants to live in the real world because she stays back in the old days when things weren't like they are now and she means well but people are different and children definitely think different. I think she worries a lot about being like her mother but I don't think that there was a thing wrong with Nammie. I think that my mother misses her a lot. My mother and father both made their lives built around us kids and that isn't a good thying because I worry about them having their own life and enjoying friends.
My brother Kirk works on the railroad and his wife teachers deranged children. Not really she is one of those special people that like to teach learning disabled. They have three active boys. Kirk is a little high strung.
My brother Kary is just a good man. I have know idea how he does what he does and I am so grateful because his kids are no.#1. He and Suzette never wanted children and they have four. He is raising his children like our parents raised us stern and not giving us a break at times. Nothing wrong with that. I don't know what to think about his wife...she has talent and I have tried more than once to be her friend but there is too much slapping back for me. I can only be slapped in the face twice and pick up on things.
My only sister, Kathryn and I don't always see eye-to-eye on things. I would have given anything to have more children and especially to have had the good children she has and she misses lot. I don't get it but I hopefully will in the next life. Thank goodness I have a half-way decent relationship with her daughter, Hannah. Madison has a tendency to be too hyper for me. I love him just the same but it takes a lot of peatince out of me.
My brother Kyle and I have a great relationship. I think that the reason we get along so well is because there are so many years between us. I was more like a sargate mother and now that we are both older we can be friends. He also worries about my parents like I do. I think it is because my other siblings tend to be too judgmental. Kary doesn't say anything but the other two have quite deep opinions. Kyle's wife and I get along great I think. I like the things she has done in her and with her life and I think that the admiration goes both ways. She has a college degree but is raising their children now. I like it because Barb's degree is non-profit organization's and I have a problem saying "no" so maybe that is why we con connect.
My niece's and nephew's names are: Zachary, Hannah, Taylour,Madison, Isaac, Tyler, Thaddeaus, Cameron, Carter, Paxton, Noah and Grace. I have step-daughter, Yolanda. Yo likes me sometimes mainly when it is something that will benefit her or her daughters. I have two granddaughter's thanks to her unprotected mis advaentures to adulthood, (NOT) Aleesha and Brooklynn.
I loe to read and will read anything. I don't like to be asked if I watch this or that because I do not like spending time in front of the TV. However, in my next life I would like to be CSI. I think that I would like to do stuff with pathology. However, with doing hair and nails I have had the chance to go to the funeral homes and there are lots of things I do not like. I think that would be different if I didn't get to know the people before I had to split their guts open.
I think that the only drama in my life right now is to tel you about the drama at the beauty shop. Some people behave in way that leads people to talk about them. I don't know why some people can live like they do and don't get what they have done wrong with their lives.

This is my father and Aleesha's great-grandfather, and Maggie's grandpaw. For some reason, this man ends up being everyone's best friend.

The lounger is my middle brother, Kary; the good father.

Next on our agenda is Paxton Ellis, Kirk and Brigette's baby although that is not true, he is mean and known to fellow cousins and brothers as the "jumper."

Then we have my only sister, five years younger, Kathryn. She doesn't seem to have the same take on life that I do...VERY UPTIGHT....

My seventeen month younger, brother Kirk is our next feature on the family tour. He has a tendency to be a bit of a groucho marx.

This is my daughter Maggie and my granddaughter Aleesha. Two beautiful girls.
What a stud another one of Kirk"s children...who would have guessed
Aleesha and grandmother. I don't have a cute granny name so mamaw it is.

This is Brooklynn Danielle Selleck. She is the newest addition to our family.
This is my daughter Maggie and Mary Berkebile at her violin concert in June 2006.
This is Kary Kintner's family and Zachary Wright. Maconaquah's graduation and our first nephew to graduate.
This is Maggie and Mary Berkebile . Maggie now taking piano and voilin from her and I myself have started taking violin one month ago.

About ME

I am 43 years old. I live in Peru, Indiana and grew up in this little, gossipping town. I am married to a rather reserved and very quite man, we are raising a duaghter, Maggie (10years old) together. I am the oldest of five children. I enjoy living in the country. I like to do yard work and worship the sun. We have a pool, thank goodness.
I have been a cosmetologist since 1987. I never thought that I would be back living in Peru and doing hair and nails but that is how the apples fell. I did do four years of college and thought that I wanted to be a shrink or then a writer. Obvisously, neither happened. I did come home and work for about fourteen months at a newspaper in a nearby town and I hated it.
I have many hobbies and interests. I don't even know where to begin...I love talking and reading. I will read just about anything, however I do not care for Stephen King or Dean Coontz.
I love to cook and try new recipes. I also love to sew and quilt...which of many I never finish. I also like to scrapbook. I love doing geneology and finding out about my forefathers. You could also say that my biggeset hobby is not saying NO...just alittle problem. I do however, wonder why so many people confide in me and also ask for advice because of which I don't really like to give.